Saturday, September 23, 2006
It's the first day of school
A new burst of rules
Wake up, gulp milk, cake, get out of bed
Damned!
i'm pissed i missed the bus
So I must walk, walk fast
But no matter
what i do, i'm still last
Took the wrong way, went the long way
now me teacher's angry and ain't happy
I was late
And still so sloppy
Chorus
Mustn't be late,
Can't get an F grade,
The bullies'll get me
See me, then hit me, eat me, beat me
I'm laughed at cause im a joke, can't take this much longer
I'm starting to choke, all of this hate and anger
Fuck my classmates!
Cause at this rate, the shape of my fate,
Won't be coming in late instead
I'll be doing murder and rape
Second Part
Off the bus
In the class
My face says I can't keep up with the pace
the flow, too slow, a lost soul, a farce show
If i ain't bottom, im low
All i know is boredom
can't listen, pay attention, no concentration
Singled out
for the rules i flout
the shit i spit-spout-shout
This is what school's about
Big Bad wolf came to me
As i wrote on my diary, i start to worry,
Does he want money, do i say sorry,
Or-FUCK YOU LARRY!
I'm the target, the one to bully
Do i cry or run?
Do i let them have their fun
no i can't, let my selfvalue drop to none
Chorus
Third Part
(dialogue starts) "Fancy this, a pansy penning his pities, expecting sympathy"
"Well, fuck you Larry you stupid panty, by the way, you look like a rookie, a pussy"
"I'll make you cry girl, watch my fists unfurl, you're completely USELESS, YOU'RE THE WORSTEST!"
"Well, you spitting-spouting-shouting this nonsense,
Ain't worth a third of a cent either" (dialogue ends)
To tell the truth these taunts don't daunt me
It's the fists that get me,
The taunt's dont't haunt me, it's the pounding that hounds me
Savage dogs wearing spectacles and bags
Ravage me till i'm but pieces and rags
Scroundrels want me to scram,
scream like a scared scrap of crap
I don't stand a chance! Fuck bystanders!
They just glance by as i get my life wrenched
Bastards looking at me, with eyes of pipsqueak and pity
Blood floods out of me, till i can't even see
Pounded and beaten for no fucking good reason,
Cuts, bruises, blood, written all over me
It's like i'm a certified murder,
A criminal, for being a loner
and before long, before the next dawn
i'm a gotta go, gonna go, gone
End
Holy shit, letalkid is good at this shit
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 8:12 AM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
wow this ticked me off cause joseph and nick dared spout shit about rap having only complete rhymes for endings of a line and dared mock me and tease me for something they got incorrectly
rap is not only about rhyme, in fact its about assonance most of the time, for those of ignorance.
english is too limited a language, to only be limited to rhymes
here's some examples to enlighten nick and joseph
Lose Yourself, by eminem
His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy
There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti
He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready
To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin
What he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud
He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out
sweaty and heavy, that is a rhyme but isn't a complete one
already, spaghetti, dy and ti are assonances, they don't come out the exactly the sameway, but the "ee" sound is good enough to make its visceral
nervous, surface, the sound "urs" is the assonance
drop bombs, the sound of "op" and "omb" is assonance
on, forgettin, "on" and "tin" is assonance
wrote down, whole crowd, so loud, come out. the "o" in the words as well as "crowd, loud out' ain't rhymes, but assonance
see? its not about stringing complete rhymes,
likewise, in "nick" and "shit", the "it-ic" is the assonance
Another example
jay z/linkin part - numb/encore
Can I get a encore? Do you want more?
Cookin’ raw with the Brooklyn boy
So, for one last time, I need y’all to roar
"core and more" are rhymes, but "raw" is an assonance
"cookin" and "brooklyn" aren't complete rhymes
"y'all" and "roar", theres an assonance of "all-oar"
See? End of story
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 2:00 AM
Friday, September 15, 2006
An unrefined rap im working on right now-
First part
It's the first day of school
A new burst of rules
Wake up, gulp milk, cake, rush out
Damned, i missed the bus
So im pissed that i must walk
the long way on my feet
Oh, shit
Took the wrong way, went the long way
now me teacher's angry and ain't happy
I was late
And still so sloppy
Chorus
Mustn't be late,
The bullies'll get me
See me, then hit me, eat me, beat me
I'm laughed cause im a joke, can't take this much longer
I'm starting to choke, all of this hate and anger
Fuck my classmates!
Cause at this rate, the shape of my fate,
I won't be coming in late
I'll be doing murder and rape
Second Part
(dialogue starts) "Fancy this, a pansy penning his pities, expecting sympathy"
"Well, fuck you fatty and your panties, by the way, you look like a pussy"
"That doesn't make sense dick Jake!"
"Well, you spitting-spouting-shouting this nonsense,
Ain't worth a third of a cent either" (dialogue ends)
To tell the truth these taunts don't daunt me
It's the fists that get me,
The taunt's dont't haunt me, it's the pounding that hounds me
Savage dogs carrying spectacles and bags
Ravage me till i'm but pieces and rags
Scroundrels want me to scram,
scream like a scared scrap of crap
Chorus
Third Part
I don't stand a chance! Fuck bystanders!
They just glance by as i get my life wrenched
Bastards looking at me, with eyes of pipsqueak and pity
Blood floods out of me, till i can't even see
Pounded and beaten for no fucking good reason,
Cuts, bruises, blood, written all over me
It's like i'm a certified murder,
A criminal, for being a loner
and before long,
i'm a gotta go, gonna go, gone
from this world
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 10:15 AM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Hey, let's try to see if the littlekid, letalkid, lethalkid, can make an extremely retarded and boring quiz interesting. I took this off fabian's blog, btw.
You want to take a quiz, don't answer with answers that you feel make you look cool, because they are answers that signify you as a boringfucktard. These questions, although they appear superficial, only appear so because the answers are superficial.
01) Single, taken or crushing?
Single. But hey, want to know my past lovelife? (:, yes you want to. I'll satisfy you. during primary 3 i was infatuated with this girl, switched school during pri4-6, got infatuated with another girl at pri6, and believe or not, often stayed back after school ended and played soccer till 5-6, then take a slow walk to the busstop in hopes of seeing the girl being driven home by her mom.
Got over it quickly, Sec 1 = i got smarter and more mature, i realised the hopelessness and desperateness of infatuation. the pri3 girl went to nygh, took the same bus to school as me, got lots of hints that she liked me too but didn't try to further it on because i knew it was infatuation and it would go away.
It didn't, until it ...did all of a sudden one day in secondary 3. Well, i'm happy it ended, but it took 7 years. Nice huh.
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02) Are you happy with your life now?
Not really, plenty of regrets which i have but idon't ponder upon. Wished i studied harder in sec 1 in math, since i thought my math was wtfpwn in primary school and had the same attitude in primary school as in sec 1. Needless to say, autofail. Sec 1 is where you learn basic algebra, the foundation of all math, hence i have a shaky foundation and everything else is hard to pick uo.
Wished i could play soccer everyday rather than study, but thats fantasy and not life. Still, iguess im lucky im superior to 90% of teenagers in the world, so yea, happy.
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03) When you meet the right person,
do you fall in love with him(her) fast?
What a fucking dumb question. Agree?
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04) Have you ever had your heart broken?
By? Love? No. Actually, i have never truly gotten my heart broken. Had some moments of injustice happen to me, some teary moments but notexactly a heartbroken affair
05) Do you believe there are some circumstances
where cheating in love is acceptable?
People who say no resoundingly are shallow, superficial. It is not acceptable, but sometimes, there is a scenario of the lesser of two evils. What if circumstances meaning saving the world from destruction, saving your loved one from further hurt (it can be distorted in such a way)
Is cheating in love then acceptable? No. Would i do it? Yep.
06) Would you take someone back if he(she) cheats on you?
define cheat? cheating can be for a person's good, like my previous answer said.
If cheating with no positivity whatsoever, i do not think i will take the person back. If i won't do it, i don't expect my friends/lover/family to do it, if you can't do that, don't be my friend. Simple as that.
Yes, everyone has his own individualistic characteristics, some have lesser willpower than others, but then, life is unfair.
07) Have you ever talked abt marriage with another before?
No, but i guess the reader, reading this somehow translates into me talking about it right? Well i think marriage really depends on whether both parties put some thought and use their brains. If they do, i think 99% of the times marriage will work, and the 1% is attributed to some crazy-shit random experiences that might tear up the couple no matter what.
08) Do you want children?
Er..i like children. i used to manipulate toddlers to fight against one another. Two toddlers placed in the same playpen, i hit one of the toddler from the back, the toddler turns around and thinks the other toddles hit him, fight occurs. Superfun and harmless because im watching to see if things go out of hand.
On a less sadistic note, children are innocent, straightforward, qualities i like in a friend and in a person. I can't be as innocent as i'd like to be (read: above manipulation, rofl), but at least i can be straightforward. They look cute, are cute (not act cute).
And i'd like to have a person who i can model after me, give him all my incredible qualities, make him a soccer star, an extremely cool, dream guy.
Yea, i want children.
09) How many?
More than one definitely. I'll make them share an extremely heartwarming and deep brotherly/sisterly/family? bond with one another. I can make an extremely cool guy and an extremely cool girl.
The cool guy would be able to fight off a bunch of thugs by himself, excel in soccer, have good moral integrity, able to communicate effectively verbally as well as through body language. Everyone, including teachers give him respect, he dares talk back to teachers only when he feels an injustice has been done.
The cool girl would not act cute, can kick a guy's ass, excel in a sport-integrity-effectivecommunication- thing i wrote above. Keeps an open mind, if guys dare to tease her she will be able to come up with a vicious comeback, eh, basically what i wrote about the cool guy.
Most of all, they would share a deep bond with one another, help each other in trouble, yea thas what i call kickass children.
10) Would you consider adoption?
Perhaps, you never know. Maybe a kid would catch my eye, i would feel pity, etcetc.
11) If someone likes you right now, what do you
think is the best way to let you know his(her) feelings?
Make me fall in love with her, then tell me. Or, just tell me straight in the face, and then embark on a journey to chase me. man, that girl would be awesome, but ...nahhh
12) Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
Nev4r been in one. If i did, i would make it enjoyable. All up to the individual.
13) Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
Giggle at each other. How asswipe is that.
14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
People who do, like fabian, are retarded morons who do not know the difference between lust and love, or fail to see that there is no such thing as love at first sight. Sounds romantic, but you're supposed to like a person because of his qualities and to do that, you have to know him well. Lust at first sight, i believe hellyea
15) Are you romantic?
No idea, but even if i ain't i can make myself to be. Up to the individual.
16) Do you believe you can change someone?
I don't believe. I know. But not everyone is worth the effort, and i don't bother to
17) If you could marry somewhere, where would it be?
By the night sea, or a snowy place during the night. There just seems to be something mystical and cosy about both of it.
18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
I do what is right and wrong, i never fight for the wrong thing and if i do, i change once i realise. When im fighting for the right thing, i don't give in. In truth, i have never been in a situation where i really thought my willpower was tested to the extreme, crosscountry runs are a test but not anywhere close.
I admire people who don't though, the japs tortured the 316 fighters till their deaths and they still shut up. Honestly, not being in that situation, i have no idea, and to say i definitely will would be an insult to those who prevailed when their willpower was truly tested to the limits.
19) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
if you mean lovey-dovey, nope. even if i had, i would correctly dismiss it as infatuation since i do not know any girl well.
20) Have you ever wished that you could
have had someone but you messed it up?
ROFL. nah.
21) Have you ever broken a heart?
no relationship= no heartbreak. Man why does this quiz assume the taker is the average-retard teenager who dives into the first infatuated relationship and deems it love?
I've made plenty of people angry before. Made a girl scream a vulgarity to me over msn (it was :FUCK YOU!!) lawl. Made cheang pist in the past. Made a lot of my classmates angry with me after i made an extremely harsh post on my blog of my 2m classmatesof which i apologize if i hadn't. Anger blinds me, that i am not invulnerable to.
22) If one day your best frend falls in love with the
girl you're deeply in love with, what would you do?
Fight for her? Failure question?
23) Are you missing someone now?
I miss people time to time,when this question is asked i think of those people i miss..so yes im missing. Im missing thomas, im missing my best friends who chose to go ri, i anticipate missing all my secondary friends when i move on as an adult life, i miss zhuhui who went to england, i miss those incredible moments where i chatted sincerely with people like songyi and xingyun, even those moments i still miss.
I miss primary school life, i miss secondary one, i miss having kevin cheng as my teacher, i miss (AMG LAME DOUBLECONNETOR, I HAVE TO BREAK THIS UP) "MISS RUHAYA", the first great teacher i ever had.
Hope this quiz didn't bore you.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 8:21 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
A overdue post, and one which i am making after another late-night deep thinking round
and here it is.
lately, i've been trying to find which is right, evolution or creationism, christianity or...non-christianity.
here's an argument i formulated-when-stumbling-upon-something-relatedtoit which convinced me that there was a creator.
Question what laws are made up from? how do the formulate? Very simply, by morals, by conscience, we judge what is right or wrong, hence setting up laws. Now if you look all around the world, despite the differences in the laws of many countries, you will find that ultimately, the laws condemn the same crimes. Murder, robbery, assault, harm to another person.
Now how did this conscience come about? How is it, that countries, people from ALL around the world have such similar morals and conscience meters? The only logical conclusion i can draw out is there was someone to differentiate what was right or wrong.
I don't know if i've convinced you, but for this moment, just this few seconds, will yourself to believe in god. close your eyes, lie on the floor and think of him as someone omnipresent, who can listen to you wherever you are.
Now speak to him, you don't need to treat him as your great benefactor. I treated and spoke to him on the same level as a friend. I felt a sense of calm, maybe even happiness, and i had some faith that God did exist.
I watched a video on the root of evil, a documentary by Richard Dawkins. I searched some wikipedia links and realised one thing
Just because everyone around the world has around the same moral values, the same consicence meter...guess what. That doesn't mean there is a creator, that DOESN'T MEAN THERE IS A GOD. It simply means that it is possible that some force or another, gave us the same conscience/moral values. It does not mean there was a creator or whatever, all that means is that something gave us the same conscience/moral values.
Or, it could be but by random chance. It could be that in actual fact, moral values around the world differed heavily, but as people took over each other, people killed each other, these moral values settled down into the same thing somewhat. Many things can be created or lost through the passage of time.
I realise that faith might not be blind belief, but it is nearly that. It is a process of non-thinking. Yes, some christians question their faith, but often, if not always, they are subconciously searching for the answer that moves towards their faith.
There have been biblical archaelogical evidences, to support the bible. The Holy Book that is true. So says the christians, so says the islams, so says the muslims, so says the jews. Faith plays an integral role throughout. There might be evidences, but ever thought that these evidences COULD BE FAKED. In Science, you can fake evidence, but it is all too EASILY EXPOSED. Theories are supposed to work in the past, as well as in the present.
biblical evidences? there is no need. A simple rewrite, a simple republish. Behold, the earth is round, and the catholics who said the earth is square is wrong. Traditions, generations of beliefs, influencing many people, EVERY people of a particular religion. Children are indoctrinated, before they have independent thinking. Through "group solidarity", false is taken as truth.
This argument was used against me before, but right now i find it helpful in formulating the argument. When you are young, before you are able to think for yourself, what allowed you to sit on the chair? My answer as that probably my eyes had seen my parents sitting down and hence, thought it was safe. The analogy is that, the "sitting down" is "believing in God". Hence, you believed in your parent's judgement to sit down, in the same way christians have faith in their parents belief
When you are a small child unable to think for yourself, you treat what is told to you as right, as a fact, a truth despite not having any evidence to back it up with. You are unable to think for yourself, therefore you believe in whatever you are told to.
What happens to christians who becomes that, even though they might not have been of a christian upbringing, is a return to the stage where they accept what is given. No doubt, some are truly convinced by some of christianity's arguments, but i believe if they were to research further, if they could keep an open mind like me, who was previously partly convinced, they would back out of it.
Look at the examples in this documentary
great linkThe assumption of mary. catholics believe jesus's mother was so important her body shot off to heaven when she died, WAS MADE UP, 600 YEARS after jesus' time. And right now, catholics believe in it as a fact. Can anyone disprove this? No. Can anyone prove it? No.
How does the bigbang come about then? Simply put, science cannot answer it, AS OF NOW. Science couldn't prove that the earth was round in the past, does that mean it was square in the past? No. Just because science is unable to prove something, doesn't mean it cannot prove that thing in the future, or that an alternative viewpoint based on trust is correct.
Alright, god may exist, allah may exist, prophet muhammad may exist. they MAY exist. as of now, the different beliefs are currently causing the deaths of thousands of people, are churning out hatred among the religions. Mankind is enclosing his mind, only allowing one god to be in there, one god which may exist.
Mutual tolerance might be advocated in Singapore right now, but who's to say what will happen if say, a superpower like the US completely becomes of Christian belief. Will we become forced to be a christian state then, due to politics, fear of power, etcetc?
When i think of all these, i close my eyes, lie down on my back and attempt to speak to God, i feel like an ass.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 10:38 AM