Tuesday, February 27, 2007
OUR IHC TEST IS A FUCKING FARCE, FULL OF BULLSHIT. Let's see why.
Let me see.
When Kim II Sung wanted to invade South Korea, he went to seek Stalin's permission. Stalin said no, so he didn't invade. After awhile, Kim II Sung wanted to invade South Korea again, so he went to Stalin to ask for permission. This time, Stalin said yes, and Kim II Sung went ahead with the invasion.
Stalin provided military support and training for Kim II Sung's army.
DID STALIN PLAY A PART IN THE KOREAN WAR AT ALL? OF COURSE NOT.
Let's put this into simpler terms.
Person A want to shoot Person B. But he chooses to ask Person C for permission. Person C says no. Person A doesn't shoot. After a few days, Person A wants to shoot Person B. He asks Person C for permission. This time, Person C say yes, then provides the training to refine his shooting technique, along with a couple of spare bullets.
Did Person C play a part in Person's A shooting of Person B?
ACCORDING TO VIVIEN SIM IT DOESN'T SHOW.
OKOK MOVING ON MOVING ON.
Conflict arises mostly due to resources than territories. Do you agree?
First of all, i said I AGREE COMPLETELY. And she went to underline it which was pretty stupid since even if i said i AGREE COMPLETELY, it doesn't matter if i said I AGREE TO A LARGE EXTENT, because if you think about it, the question already said "most".
BUT WAIT, THAT'S NOT ALL.
Let me give a few more similarly-phrased questions.
Idiots arise mostly due to nurture than nature. Do you agree?
Dumb IHC teachers arise mostly due to innate stupidity than pure stupidity. Do you agree?
One would think that the question asks for reasons and explanations behind why dumb ihc teachers arise. But according to the IHC teachers, you need to explain what sort of manifestations these idiots come in the form of. Like Chan, Sim, etc. I wonder why we don't need to explain the history of Dumb IHC teachers, its definitions and influences over the people around them. I also don't know why they don't ask if Dumb IHC teachers are smarter than a dog. Why? Why?
BECAUSE THE QUESTION DOESN'T ASK WHY. WHY THEN, DO WE HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHAT SORT OF CONFLICT IS MANIFESTED?
Ho hum, no point being polite and shit, because all they do is spit out a bunch of irrelevant crap and throw it back into your face. They don't even care, so might as well do good for the society and announce what a farce this IHC test is.
For awhile i pitied Vivien Sim for the way 4N handled her, but i quickly realised she ain't really worth it, especially now that i feel it for myself. Let's spill out some quotes from her and point out all her moral hypocrisy.
So we don't offer a thank you when she marks our paper, or a thank you card during teacher's day. So she goes on a tirade of self-righteous crap about how teachers work so hard to help us, in a pathetic attempt to exude a facade of high moral valueeessssss that she is trying her GOSHDARNBEST TO INSTILL INTO US.
Well, let's see. How much do you really work for us really. Borrow a couple of videos from the library, make us teach ourselves, give us worksheets for us to fill in ourselves. That's really hard work Sim! You have to mark a few classes' worth of essays over the course of 8 weeks and let us teach ourselves! Ahh, how i admire your heroic efforts in spurring our class to greater heights! You do a basic job of teaching us, and expect us to show our gratitude to you. YOU'RE PAID TO DO IT, and i don't think any of the class thinks you actually go out of your way to help us.
Oh oh, and let's spout some more crap about how, in the "O" levels, we don't even have the chance to clarify or argue. That's irrelevant. In fact, that reflects badly, because even though the world is unfair, the correct thing to do is to make it as fair as possible, whenever possible. That's what one would expect from a teacher with such integrity deserving of our worshit.
Oh, and if i remember correctly, you claimed you were fine with us not giving examples of conflict. That, you say, we must refer to Chan. Does this imply then, that you agree with us, that we should not be penalized because of this ridiculous flaw in the answer scheme? Do you not think, it is YOUR responsibility to fight for what is right, to ensure the fairest, most just answer scheme is available for the students, so you can live out to your responsibilities? LOL I GUESS NO, JUST TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT AND ASK US TO "you can refer to channy".
And i hate the ridiculous body language Sim uses. Shaking your head at my answer, trying your best attempt to impress upon me that my point was unbelievably insufficient and that you can't believe i actually questioned you on the mark. But of course, Person C so did not contribute to Person's A shooting of Person B at all, so np!np! you are the best!
But who cares, the whole sec 4 cohort agrees with me that the ihc test is a fucking farce. Oh, i hath proof of it!
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 3:39 AM
Monday, February 26, 2007
hahahaha
A few months back i felt quite helpless and how i felt time passed so quickly. When i was sec 3 i made a reminder to myself how quickly sec 2 had passed, and then during december i felt time had passed so quickly again. I felt like slowing it down...rewinding it even, rewinding it to secondary 1, not because there was less homework and stress then (although thats a plus), but because there was the comfort of having 3 more years to go, 3 more years of being with close friends and playing footie...
I felt helpless and a certain feeling of...angst...or something. A feeling that time passed too quickly and i couldn't no shit to stop it. But after a great deal of thought, i decided there wasn't much point brooding about it. I should just try to enjoy life as much as possible, do what i have to do, and not think too much about growing up. Make sure i keep the really good friends.
Then, i had, and still have periods of self-doubt. Times where i find myself thinking "what the fuck am i thinking of, playing for liverpool?" I look at the malays, their juggling is way better than mine, but when i play with them the gap is much closer than i thought.
Then, i'd have people around me who doubt my ability, nothing wrong with them thinking that but it always manages to pull your confidence down a little. That's why i like playing with wincoln, zhu hui, and a few others. They don't doubt my ability, they let me dribble without urging me to pass the ball off, they give me the freedom to enjoy my game. I love that.
I always try to encourage people, but i get pissed easily if i see they're not trying. There are times where i get frustrated, frustrated that my teamates are not good enough, but i know how it feels to feel inferior. It's not their fault they are not good enough, so i'd never berate them. What pisses me off is seeing people losing the ball or letting a person go past him, and not making the attempts to track back. It just exudes disrespect to your teamates, just shows that you don't give a shit about doing your part, and all you're concerned with is your own game. That's a horrible attitude and never fails to irk me.
I find it quite pathetic for someone to avoid confrontation when the situation calls for one. When you undertake a certain responsibility, a certain principle; you've got to fulfill it, got to repay the trust put into you, got to make sure you do what needs to be done.
I don't see a point in doing something that seems to be pointless, even though the school says its compulsory. Big deal, what's the principle behind having the SL project? It's to instill a realization that there are people in need of help and to trigger that source of empathy and desire to help the less abled. I know what the whole shit is all about, and i think i don't need it. I have a desire to help the less fortunate, just not now. I need to not let myself down first, before trying to help others. I don't want to do a shitty SL project just for the sake of pleasing so-and-so, and i'm sure they wouldn't want me to be doing it just for the sake of pleasing em as well. Confrontation? Big deal, as long as i'm not utterly unreasonable, i'm sure the school will be able to accept it.
It's a natural human tendency to avoid conflict, to avoid trouble. It takes a sort of moral courage to overcome this tendency, and it is one that's worth developing. How do you develop it? Picture yourself, the way you want it to be. I want to be someone who stands up to authority when necessary and take things by the scruff of the neck. I'm sure many people want to do the same, but they always crumble to this tendency.
I'm sure most people don't have the special ability to overcome this human tendency, there's a reason why i'm legod, the only one.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 7:29 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
I HAVE HIGH EQ talk to me if you're having problems!
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 4:01 AM
Friday, February 23, 2007
okokokok let's come up with a plan im going to stick to by and large.
MY ENGLISH SUCKS AND MY CHINESE SUCKS MORE!
///Read for at least 1 hour during weekends.
///Do all chinese homework on saturdays
///Read through past compos and shiznit for 20 minutes
///Do half of all homework load on SATURDAY
Weekdays are reserved for football. No work except for homework on Weekdays.
Study for exams 3 days before they're here
Do something more for the Grand Final's film project every week.
Play football for one hour at least everyday except Sunday. Tests days don't matter because i ought to have studied over the course of 3 days.
The rest, leave it to nobody.
PLAN MSG 2.0 BY END OF TERM!
MATH (2 AUS) -> A1 (No problem, all i need to do is work hard and revise. No turning back for me)
English -> A2( I rhink i have a fairly good grasp of english but that might be wrong. Hence, i'll aim for a consistent mix of B3s and A2s, and with ACE, i'll make it to A2 at least)
Chinese -> B3( I score a fairly pathetic B4s and C5s, but with my new learning programme my composition should get better and a maxing of Ace + OP will get me to B3)
Chemistry -> A2( Chemistry ain't hard to understand. More like i underestimate the power of studying for Chemistry. I will apply my 3 day-rule the next time, and see how it goes. I have the ability to get B3s and B4s with last-day studying, maybe 3 day studying along with ACE will push it to A2
Physics -> A1( Exactly the same as Chemistry, except that in my opinion, Physics is more straightforward. With a little refinement in my answers, i ought to have got an A2 last test, so i'll be aiming higher)
Integrated Humanities (2 AUS) -> A2 (So fucking simple to understand. The hard part is in understanding how to get the format right, to get the points in.)
In this plan i have one point to spare here and there. 2.0 MSG isn't anything easy to get, and my plan seems to be quite reliant on ACE. Nevertheless, i put great faith in the 3 day studying plan which has done me wonders for my Math A1s.
WASN'T THAT SO EXCITING READING ABOUT MY PLANS AND GOALS (:
Now TO FOOTBALL
At least one hour spent on training football except on Sunday. There will be days here and there that i won't be able to do as i please, such as camps and shiznit, but these will be more or less made up by 2 hours of football EP3!
Let's say i manage to do a mean of 1 hour per day for 10 months, assuming 1 month is 30 days, thats 300 x 6/7 hours (Sunday is "free" day) of training.
Let's go letal, tan jun yang, letalkid, and legod. Together, with the help of jose silva's subconscious mind programme, we will do well.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 6:53 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
SKEPTICISM SUCKS D=
oh jesus, jeez i don't know what to say.
you know it's silly to easily believe in things
yet you know there are things skeptics can only raise doubts but not disprove
because most skeptics already go in with the mindset of disproving, scoffing at whatever doesn't agree with their way of reasoning and logic. UFOS, ghosts, paranormal experiences, how well can skeptics disprove them? Most of the time it's a matter of experience, the experience you had but could not prove or explain, doesn't mean its a lie.
Is a blind man stupid to believe that there is no such thing as sight, or even colour?
You believe in a better world, you believe you can change it. You want to believe that you will get what you deserve one day, but that ain't mean you're going to get it. That's why the Law of attraction is so- er - attractive. It goes along the lines of thinking of something happening in your life, and that thing will realise itself in your life.
For example, if you think that you're a lousy, ugly, loser, your self in reality will become that. You do realise what you believe yourself to be. It doesn't happen immediately, but is a gradual cumulative process. It makes some sense, since if YOU do think that you are that bad, you'll be resigned to that, and WILL look that bad. If on the other hand, you believe you are capable of better, you will work to it and become, that much more capable.
But how do you prove that? All you can do, is point at your experience, point at other people's experiences. But the skeptics, they will point out to how unsubstantial the evidence is compared to the population, that you deliberately pick out some people who have had such experiences or maybe even fabricate some stories.
Most skeptics, already thinking of disproving you, won't try it out. If they try it out, half the time it will be full of doubts, skepticism that it ever works. And that, will play itself into their lives. They won't find the experience they are looking for, and condemn such a metaphysical theory. Even if it might be true, even if it has worked more than it has not.
Good skeptics, know that just because it isn't proven, doesn't mean its false. But even so, it takes a great deal of willpower and control of the mind to try out the law of attraction and yet not constantly filling your own mind with doubts and skepticism. I don't know if its possible.
At the end of the day, i prefer to risk looking foolish and believing, hoping that i'm right. I could be wrong, maybe that's why Hope is part of Pandora's box.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 5:39 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Hmm. Since ir's valentines...
I've found my purpose in life; to inspire people to pursue their dreams, by being THE EXAMPLE, to have the life i desire, the person i desire to be. I've learnt more things about character, a sense of responsibility, a duty to do which you must. I've learnt to fuckget about how someone else might be not doing anything, learnt to be the better man that volunteers to carry the burden. I've learnt what skeptism is, and how important it is, but how blinding it can be as well.
I've learnt how to Just Do It.
But there's still something that gnaws away. The feeling of love, the want to immerse yourself in it. Even though i know some of the relationshits i see will not last long, are not as smooth-sailing or beautiful as those shown on TVs, i know out there in the world, there will be a few, rare individuals who are as great as me.
There will be great, amazing relationships in existence. And i just want to try that out too, see how it's like. Fabian is good at that, that's his strength, But i don't want to be him, i want to test, to tease, to play with a worthy girl. I have a feeling my expectations are so high that it will be very rare that i will meet such a one.
But you know, its possible. I've been acquainted to this girl called abigail kang over msn. Haven't seen her in real-life, and am not planning to get close to her or anything. I'm serious, but i have to just accept there will be stupid people who are unable to know what i', trying to say here so i'll just let it be.
I've talked to her a few times over msn, read her blog, and from what i know of her, she fits into my type. Very honest with herself, open to new things, doesn't try to put on a facade, has the courtesy and sense to participate in a senseless msn conversation unlike most bitches who leave without a word. And she plays football!
There are quite a handful of girls who speak sense...but very few who can speak sense and be open to new things and feel the need to have fun intensely and are honest. Oh, and who are comfortable with themselves. I'm making a LUDICRUOUS, FATUOS (FUCK SPELLING!!) assumption but i think 90% females are uncomfortable themselves to a significant extend. SHALL I MAKE THAT 99%! So few, so few, so few.
SO remember! Do not tease legod! He is the best! And the best, deserves the best, The rest, can be left to the rest.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 8:16 AM
Sunday, February 11, 2007
FUCKING DREAM, IF YOU DON'T FUCKING DREAM YOU'LL NEVER GET IT
I don't care about being realistic anymore. I don't want to reason myself to not do it. I won't reason myself that i am unable BECAUSE I KNOW i am FUCKING ABLE.
I don't want to regret 10 years later. I am able, to do what i want, simply because i am legod, i am TAN JUN YANG, i am the greatest, i am letalkid, and i work hard. I believe in my own ability, i believe that hard work will bring me to what i want. I know that the only people who don't get what they want is the people who don't try to pursue their dreams.
I really hope the people around me will find theirs now. Nike and Adidas have slogans...slogans that you should base your life on. Just Do It, it's that simple. There's no need to hesitate and shit, who cares if you fall. At least you fall. At least you know how it feels like to fall. And when you get up, you can fall again. And again, till your knees crumble and your body gets wrecked.
But at the end, you have no regrets. You will eventually make it, after falling, just like you will learn to ride a bicycle after trying hard enough. Impossible is nothing. Nothing is impossible. But sometimes, you realise its too late. You regret that you hadn't taken the first step, you had NEVER DARED take the first step.
You end up in as an average person, living an average life, with an average family, doing an average job, and bristling with regret when you see that i had told you to pursue your dreams. you bristle with regret when you see that your dreams could be accomplished, when you see it on the newspapers, Tan Jun Yang, liverpool winger, pride of Singapore.
I sincerely hope that people believe in themselves. I hate to see potential wasted. I hate to see unfulfilled dreams. I know how regret feels, and it is the worst, possible feeling i've ever felt. I don't want anyone i care for to feel it.
If you believe that i'm a true friend, believe in what i say.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 8:41 AM
Friday, February 09, 2007
It's hard to be the best, but legod says npnp!
I'm doing considerably decent for math, i can err understand the concepts most of the time, i can do most, if not all of the assignment questions myself and get a B at the minimum. I got an A1 for my recent math test, scraped it with a 30/40, but i made careless mistakes worth 4 pts.
There's no turning back now, sec 1 was the jump of doom, my algebra foundation was shaken, struggled like mad throughout the year , broke even in secondary 2. Started picking up the pieces in secondary 3, and this year there's NO FUCKING TURNING BACK LETAL IS THE BEST
Whoopsiedaisies i crashed my summary by er- doing a completely wrong passage so that's 20 marks gone and and andddddd 15 minutes wasted of which i could have used to complete and check my other answers, GG LETAL, but you're the best you can turn it around next term with an A1 np.
somehow people find this year a year of burning but i find it okay, not that bad, considering i plays footie till 6 and go home at 7. but with about an hour of work + some more during weekends, i get pass fine, i manage to listen in class by slapping myself considerably hard..sometimes.
on hindsight i thought i was just maybe above average in sec 2, now im confident that im at least one of the top 3 players. Let's see, Aran is somewhat better than me, that's all. I didn't do well at field in the previous match but hellllll i had a sprained right foot 25 minutes into the game. My timing of those high balls were awful and since i was a defender it was rather bad, but mehh the other aspects like not letting other players get past me, tackling, dribbling (with a sprained ankle on a bumpy pitch fux you), passing were all pretty decent.
wincoln was one of the top players but he hasn't played this year, heh so boo to him and yes to me. i've realised as long as ive got belief and confidence in my abilities i can play the ball well. Just being honest with myself and affirming this belief with myself, over and over.
i didn't think it was that bad, but i realised how relaxed the two people sitting beside me are. Michael isn't that bad, but benjamin's lack of awareness of this year's importance just astounds me. during chinese compo he stares at the sheet of paper, then goes to sleep for lets say 30 minutes, then tries to rush through it in the last 20 or so.
his math is pretty good, but getting 20/40 for a rather easy test just means that he didn't do any revision. If i didn't do revision i'd probably get a 10/40, but he's not bad at math, math counts for 2 Academic units, and he just fucks it all up. Man he's pretty messed up, he sleeps in plenty of lessons, get lots of shut-eye, doesn't do his work, doesn't do the ace worksheets teachers give us, oooh thats a lotta crap down there.
At this rate, he's going to suck at chinese, math, ihe, chemistry. IHC and Physics have ratherrrrrr simple concepts and you can't really deprove in english since we use it day to day, read it day to day. Oh wait, but i don't see him doing any ace, or having any projects so , what'd you know he's going to die.
I feel honestly, quite sad, at his unfulfilled potential. I have an urge to get him to get cracking. But i've been there, and it takes oneself to realise, and it takes oneself to pull himself out of the shithole he dug. Life's so much different when you have goals and dreams, when there's a purpose to it.
I encourage everyone to get and build one. Start thinking on it, and don't be daft and waste time on things you don't have much interest in. Don't commit yourself unnecessarily, don't take up things for the sake of taking it up. Whats the point of taking bio if you're struggling with math, physics and chemistry? All the certificates of achievement, great material for your portfolio, but who do you want to be?
Rather than being a jack-of-all-trades, its much easier and better to focus on what you like. I'm determined to carve a career out of football, and smash into the liverpool first team. Even if it sounds foolish, i don't want to spend my whole life regretting i didn't try. I believe that i have the talent, the determination, to get there, and if i don't, at least i've led a great 10 or 8 years driving towards what i love.
Here's my plan for my next 10 years; Focus on football, but be able to keep up with my studies as well. Games are good, but i recognize my own power in controlling my urges and addiction, I WILL STOP when i need to, and i will do what it takes to lead the life i desire. I feel real joy in seeing the results of my hardwork, my improvements in studies and footie.
I've managed not to give half a crap about looks as i used to. I'd like to look good, but hey, i want a fabulous girl that can understand me, can complement my personality, keep me excited about her, a girl satisfied with the few hours a week of companionship she might only get from me. And as much as all girls like goodlooking guys, fabulous girls i want won't care half as much as the others. And if there isn't one, no one deserves me, because i'm just the way i am.
I'm comfortable with myself, but i see so many ways to improve. Can i stick out and not tell the truth no matter the torture im put through, and do i have the moral courage to step out and help a person being beaten up by several others. It's all about being the person i desire to be, and taking steps, reprogramming my own mind, to become the character i desire.
And when i get what i desire, i become the perfection, the ultimate epitome, of legod.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 9:18 AM