Monday, December 18, 2006
If you don't make noise, who gives a fuck about you
If you simply shut up, who's going to know what your problem is
Sometimes people think its better to suffer in silence. That's the people who get ignored,. They make excuses, some wifes going "oh, he's nly like that because he's drunk", some friends going 'i'm trying to be nice, i don;t want to ignite pointless arguments". Some people actually think that by keeping quiet, their troubles are going to be solved.
SO let me just say...NO its not going to be solved. Nothing is solved if you do nothing. Don't assume people will come looking at you, thinking they have done an injustice to you. They assume everything is going to happen the way they think. That if they continue keeping faith with their husbands, forgiving them time and time again, their husbands will actually change.
If you don't try a new change in your life, a ne wway to talk, a new way to face what you deem to be injustices, its no wonder you never know what people will actually do. All you end up doing is wallowing in your selfpity/anguish/shit
What am i like? I'm the kind of guy who thinks that if a oerson doesn't want to stand up for himself, he shouldn't cry about how mistreated he is. If the wife wants to continue submitting to her wifewhackng husband, she shouldn't blame anyone but herself.
I think Singaporeans are very pragmatic. I'm probably the few exceptions, who dares to dream and realise the dream of playing for liverpool. If you don't dare to think about it, that's alright to me.. I just don't want to cry and look back and cry more, and again, when i find out and regret that i didn't even try.
When i go into everygame, i want to win. I'm a bad loser, but hey, losing is fine. What matters is how i lose, and how people react to losing. If i lose, i want to lose because the opponents are good. I don't want to lose because of my own stupidity. What annoys me the most is how people react to losing. I feel so fucking utterly annoyed when people actually laugh or find it funny at getting raped over a game. Yes a game, but there's pride in everything. The bullshit that games are just games, i recognize that., but its a different matter when you find gettng humiliated unny.
I can't imagine any person playing soccer and getting whacked 10-0, having the cheek to laugh at their own defeat. I dislike losing, i hate losing in a dumb way, i fucking hate it when people treat utter defeat lightly.
You know what else i hate? I hate people who think they know-it-all. When i see people doing dumb things, i feel a huge urge to scream and curse in vulgaritis, but i do my best to keep it under control. As my frustration mounts, i inevitably let off a few curses, but ones which contain no namecalling or shit. Oh, and my curses simply go omg, do this! omg common sense please!
Now that is harsh? I don't understand why people can't just admit they suck or explain why they sucked. Instead they choose the ridicuous solution of keeping quiet, storing up all their self-righteouness, and then pouring it out in the hopes that someone wil agree and sympathize and give them a pat on their backs.
Again, people who pretend to know-it-all, come up with their own conclusions about what i am like. I dislike losing, but i'm my mind and heart are not overruled by the thought of winning. I don't curse and scream because i;m not winning, I scream and curse because of the way i'm NOT WINNING. It's not the result, its the process. I'd rather have a tightly-fought loss than an easy walkover win.
I'd feel bad if i hurt a friend, i'm willing to say sorry. But hey, if people want to act like they're fine with my abuse, i won't know if they're hurt. Despite their best attempts at trying to be nice, no one is going to notice it because it absolutely does shit except show the fact that you;re willing to accept abuse.
If you're not good enough, don't try to know who iam.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 6:08 AM
