Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Hey
Instead of putting myself down like what many people seem to like to do, either because they truly feel that way or they want to seem modest, but whichever way it is still quite pathetic, this post shall be dedicated to how great I am.
You can choose to brush it off, acknowledge it, but i don't care because you know I speak the truth anyway. People call me egoistic, some say i'm delusional, but at the end i have evidence that i am definitely not the lattar, perhaps the former. And, there is not tagboard for you to flame if you wish to btw.
Should I put it there? There seems to be no point actually, other than increasing the interactivity between me and the reader. Probably anyone who bloghops and stumbles upon this blog will keep coming back for more unless he/she is an utterly enlightened individual, is full of activity in his life such that there are no bored moments within it.
Actually i want this blog to be famous, to gain attention. I don't know, attention seems to be something good to be gained, especially positive one. I am no desperado-attention-seeko but it is simply a normal human instinct. I do wish it be famous and be voted best blog instead of xiaxue's which i know pretty much pales in comparison unless you count putting photos in as good.
Reconsidering, i think i had better put both my positive and negative sides. Uh, yea.
Okay, i shall have the format, positve one, negative one, positive two, negative two, you get it? You must be retarded if you don't, and i don't serve retards.(actually i serve no one but myself, and perhaps my best friends)
So here we go
Positive trait one: Athletic/Sporty
Well firstly i am decent if not above average at soccer if you take into consideration the time i play and the training i received until the past 2 months. I stand out in basketball if you put me into a crowd of people who hardly play basketball, even though i next to never play it. I am above average in running if you take into account the whole population, but am one of the slower ones in track. Also, i have above average stamina as well. My arms are average-weak strength though, i do not know why others can be much stronger when they do not do much arm-activity like me.
Negative trait one: Concentration/Focus
I think i have average concentration but i count it as negative because i want to have excellent concentration. Meaning i can do well consistently in competitions, focus at least 80% and clear my mind away from distraction. I heavily encounter this problem during high jump, and sometimes soccer where my mind goes into a blank.
Positive trait two: Great adaptiblity/Fast learning ability
Dota, CS, advanced wars, i got a decent proficiency in all of these games within a considerable short span of time. I am probably one of the best advanced wars player around, and i picked up dota and cs fairly quickly. Of course, i hardly play cs except for those rare lan occasions so i still suck at it. Overall i pretty much learn everything and anything quickly although that sometimes varies according to my interests...
Whenever im in a new situation or school or environment i can adapt quite well, make friends easily, can see which situations i am right or wrong and hence, appear to be an excellent guy which i truly am anyway. I think most people who know me in reallife like me? Those who really interact with me (same class) anyway. Oh, and dota requires good adaptibility yea.
Negative trait two: Closed emotions.. (for lack of a better word)
Although i can make friends pretty easily, i keep to myself if i have no need or no desire to open up. Eg if i am going out with my friends, i'd rather keep to myself during that period than try to know more about people by taking the initiative. Anyway, people have no right to complain unless they themselves take the initiative of which i would say "rofl pwwnch00" and shrug off. Oh, and ex-class outings...no i don't feel the need to open up to talk to girls even though i know they are too awed by my greatness to take the initiative.
I hold my emotions to myself quite a bit, eg during track and field when everyone is cheering, i would be standing up to show my support but not screaming out. I rmb during the ri-hci shield when gino scored the winning penalty, everyone in the hci soccer team dashed towards gino but i held back, then jogged slowly to them with a huge grin on my face. Oh, and i try my best not to appear pleased yea, instead i prefer looking unfriendly since that means people are less likely to try to bully me and people asking for donations would be deterred. BTW i think it works quite well.
Positive or Negative trait: Straightforward/Unfeeling
Hah, okay, i'm quite harsh to people who i think bitch and whine about unnecessary things. Or are ignorant and yet try to be knowledgeable and talk tonnes of crap. Also, incompetency pisses me off but if i see the guy is trying hard i do hold back and give him the support he needs. Being straightforward depends on the person you talk to really, most people are turned off by directly negative comments, but some managed to acknowledge it. The rest, of which is the majority, made up of girls btw, cry/pine/whine turn defensive, fail to see the holy truth in my words, cry/pine/whine/bitch.
I can easily beat around the bush and talk to a person nicely, help him nicely, but i choose not to because it fills me up with joy to get the person pissed at me when i am speaking truth that would help him. (BTW I TORE MY TOE SKIN I CAN SEE THE RED IN THE FLESH). And, it would be a waste of my time! Some people get offended really easily though, so its negative to some, positive to me.
Positive trait: Mature enough/Thinks a lot about life/ Able to emphatize/ Put self in other's shoes
I can do put myself into other's shoes extremely well, its a gift i guess but most of the time its not needed. Why? Because 90% of the time people are crying about unnecessary things, although there is a small portion where when i put myself in their shoes, i feel sympathy for them. Although i dare not claim i am super mature, i think i am mature enough, to the extend that i see past material comforts, can control my desires (such as jealousy and infatuation), reasonable.
I think a lot about life actually. I think more than 99% teenagers. Therefore i am hardly depressed, can give 99% correct judgements in love, family, or friendship. I think about what i would do if i ran across a bunch of people beating up another, i imagine myself alone with two girls throwing themselves at me, i think about what would happen if people close to me died. A lot, so from now on you should trust whatever judgement i have, but most people are too ignorant to believe in truth.
I can emphatize. I am sensitive to people's feelings. That doesn't mean i don't offend people rofl, because most of the people i offend deserve it. Some people get angry over small things, i can't help with that but in the end, i know how much hurt my words will inflict and can control myself.
Negative trait: Egoistic..?
The majority of people who use this word on me are...girls. I think because every guy wants to appear nice and comfy in front of them, and my straightforwardness surprises them. Hah, i don't have a small ego but not a very big one either. I can take criticism no problem, i do get some things wrong and i admit my mistakes if i did make any. But if you claim i had and i flamed back nastily, it means I have not made a mistake. I hate apologizing btw.
Positive trait: Attractive/Hot
I am probably going to get pooned or burned by a lot of real-life friends by mentioning this, BUT I HAVE FACTS TO BACK THIS UP! Besides the natural attraction that comes about with being an athelete, I think i have a pretty damn cute/hot face as well. Well, guys being guys have a different criteria of what's hot or not, but only the girls matter so 100% facts from that gender. Actually, there are a few guys who mention i have my face have unique features..but nevermind.
Due to the horrible stereotype and social environment, very few girls would go up and tell a guy he/she is hot. However, i do know for a fact that when i was primary 6, a girl one year younger liked me. An infatuation 100%, but 90% infatuations occur to a hot person only. I have also received various sources from people close to this girl in my secondary years that she liked me, its not 100% sure but its pretty damn close because i think blushing on sight and keeping quiet/nodding head when people ask "do you like him" should be consent.
Oh, and one very iffy source, during the ny carnival kaiye was talking to cheang and then he suddenly turned around and told me that cheang thought i was hot. Well, he said it quite loudly, i do not know for sure if it was true or false but cheang didn't seem to have any reaction that objected to his statement.
What must be taken into consideration is that, unlike many others i do not make too much an effort to make myself look good. That is, no expensive shoes, no superlow ankle socks, no pulling down of shorts till their at my knees, no tucking out of shirts, no expensive haircuts, no handphones, no mp3 players, often sleepy look. At most i do is make me hair presentable (which don't take much effort), make sure i do not have corny high socks which i think teachers would oppose to, do not have superhigh pants which is already ridiculous because i find it impossible to wear high pants rofl, they drop down to my waist.
So to any resident hottie rding the blog, try what i did and see how many people you attract k.
Negative trait: Super-cocky look
I put on this look especially when i'm around ny girls because most of them think they are too hot for you. What i do is i keep looking up and my chin is slightly tilted upwards, whenever i catch the eye of a person i would look away with somewhat of a smirk. I did this in the mirror and thought it was 100% qianbian cocky. Otherwise, i put it on because i know i am superior to most people around me in terms of nearly..everything? Except maybe studies which i am not too hot in heh. Thing is, i have never been made fun of on the street by other schools as compared to some of my fellow hci busmates...I think many people do not dare approach me because of this look which is pretty damn fine with me.
Positive trait: ability to stand up for myself/friends
This applies only in serious situations where i really think it is necessary. My queue gets cut by people who allow their friends to cut but that isn't very serious. And some other minor examples i can't think of right now. However, during the serious situations where i need to, i do. Eg i remember i was playing street soccer with my classmates who don't play regularly and hence, aren't very good. Some people from other consorts came down and deliberately kicked the ball at one of my mates, trying to passs it off as a pass (amazing pun). I went up and told him to stop it, and he did.
Oh btw, there was one incident where me fab mj and mj were playing soccer at the void deck with 2 malay teams. Once there was a pretty skillful malay who tried to dribble past me, got tackled and started getting extremely riled up and hitting me. His hits weren't very pain, i was quite confused actually so i got hit for..er nothing. He tried this flying kick which er, missed but anyways it was an uncomfortable moment. There was a period of time when they gained control and kept ramming the ball to our keeper, until it reached the skilfull guy, i rushed up and blocked his ram and looked him in the eye. he seemed to leave me alone after that.
Negative trait: Procrastination
Yea even the great one can't escape from this one. However, i have procrastinated less than before and will probably get better so yea ^^
Negative trait: Sloppy/Lazy
According to weiling myattire, the way i carry myself, my sleepiness all make me seem sloppy. I'd say fuxch00 , because thats due to me being lazy and errr k sloppy lor. BTW its a bonus to my hawtness. Oh, and no sense of punctuaity. Which is true, sometimes in the morning i can't be bothered to wake up and go "who cares i'll jus be late for an hour!" This is especially true in track and field because I CANT BE BOTHERED TO WAKE UP SO EARLY JUST TO JUMP, but i do like soccer and have always attended trainings on time
Negative trait: Being an asshole
OKay, i do make fun of people, i do taunt them. I offend, maybe humiliate. I can be an asshole at times. But i think i know where the line is drawn.
Conclusion: This is not a complete list but i had fun writing it and i am sure you would have had fun reading it as well. as you can see, i am an excellent guy with minor flaws, hence, all of you bow down to me. Alternatively, see if anything happens if you drop your handphone into the toilet bowl.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 7:49 AM
