Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Hmm. Since ir's valentines...
I've found my purpose in life; to inspire people to pursue their dreams, by being THE EXAMPLE, to have the life i desire, the person i desire to be. I've learnt more things about character, a sense of responsibility, a duty to do which you must. I've learnt to fuckget about how someone else might be not doing anything, learnt to be the better man that volunteers to carry the burden. I've learnt what skeptism is, and how important it is, but how blinding it can be as well.
I've learnt how to Just Do It.
But there's still something that gnaws away. The feeling of love, the want to immerse yourself in it. Even though i know some of the relationshits i see will not last long, are not as smooth-sailing or beautiful as those shown on TVs, i know out there in the world, there will be a few, rare individuals who are as great as me.
There will be great, amazing relationships in existence. And i just want to try that out too, see how it's like. Fabian is good at that, that's his strength, But i don't want to be him, i want to test, to tease, to play with a worthy girl. I have a feeling my expectations are so high that it will be very rare that i will meet such a one.
But you know, its possible. I've been acquainted to this girl called abigail kang over msn. Haven't seen her in real-life, and am not planning to get close to her or anything. I'm serious, but i have to just accept there will be stupid people who are unable to know what i', trying to say here so i'll just let it be.
I've talked to her a few times over msn, read her blog, and from what i know of her, she fits into my type. Very honest with herself, open to new things, doesn't try to put on a facade, has the courtesy and sense to participate in a senseless msn conversation unlike most bitches who leave without a word. And she plays football!
There are quite a handful of girls who speak sense...but very few who can speak sense and be open to new things and feel the need to have fun intensely and are honest. Oh, and who are comfortable with themselves. I'm making a LUDICRUOUS, FATUOS (FUCK SPELLING!!) assumption but i think 90% females are uncomfortable themselves to a significant extend. SHALL I MAKE THAT 99%! So few, so few, so few.
SO remember! Do not tease legod! He is the best! And the best, deserves the best, The rest, can be left to the rest.
silverletal [Simple and Clean] 8:16 AM
